these days I’ve just “found” that album - “Smash” by Offspring (some kind of old, ’94, but anyway)... and well, I like it. I have never listened to that kind of music (I know some Nirvana, etc. stuff, but Nevermind just gathers dust around /too many times listened, hehe/) , so first it was some kind of strange (now I already can differentiate the songs ;) , hard to listen to that many guitars on one place :D, but later I just couldn’t leave the headphones. and seems I had really needed something different from The Ballad Hits ;)

as I feel absolutely smashed (well, maybe more hurted, angry and exhausted than ’smashed’) since some days this album fits perfectly my mood. some poweful guitar rock songs listened terribly loud (almost impossible to stand sound) are exactly what I need. somehow I found my peace there, a way to slip away from the pain and everything... to forget the whole world for a while, and to get all alone (better off on my own), I feel, was the best I could do. and now I’m a way better (still need to relax, but that isn’t that hard to do)

my current favourite song is “Smash” , which grabbed me the first time I heard it on Wednesday (of course not the first time really, but the first time I payed any attention for)... then maybe “so alone” because of the lyrics (“Look at the crowd and tell me whether all are surrounded but none are together / If you’re awake, look all around at all of the people / Still you’re so alone, so alone / If I could, I’d make a suggestion without sounding preachy or begging the question / Melt with your minds, melt with each other / Don’t be surrounded, don’t be so alone”) , and so on...

thanks for the reading, I just needed to share my thoughts. any opinions are welcome.

goodnight (or whatever it is there) and take care,
j.