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I can create.
I can’t do anything but create.
I can’t learn anything if I don’t do it in any creative way. I just can’t learn anything by heart.
if I do any repetative job, I must do it in a creative way - otherwise I just don’t do it - I get bored a way too easily if there’s no creation in what I do.
I must create. otherwise I die - mentally. stopping creating is like stopping breathing. or eathing. (either way - the final is death, on any level).
creation is to be found everywhere - you just have to open your eyes wide to see it, or better to say - to open your mind wide. everywhere, if you need to see it. I do.
creation is not necessarily beauty, but in the most common case it is. but beauty is just an opinion - and - as every opinion - everyone can define it in different way.
creation is to provoke. creation leads to creation, as well as to so many other things. it’s open circle.
inspiration is the basic of creation. the talent is an ability to express yourself freely. you can be so damn smart, but if you can’t express yourself you’ll be the only one who knows it.
you can’t learn how to express yourself - you can be taught how to use your abilities, but never how to create. to create is to do something new - no-one can teach you how to do new things, they just can show you how to use your hands in the process of creation. no-one can give you a clue how to use your mind, where the creation comes from.
you can’t fly if you can’t see the sky. but once you reach the sky you either fall down or either you fly higher and higher, so that nothing can stop you.
the first step of creation is to find what you are really good at. I still haven’t found that thing for myself, so I try and try various things, various levels of creating... what I know by now is, that I’m no good in mathematics, science, history, languages (though if I have the ambition to, I can learn anything. I want to learn languages, and I have the ambition to, and so I do... I consider different languages as different ways to express and create, and that’s what I like about learning them). what I know by now is, that I’m good in arts. but art is to be found in thousand forms - drawing, design, music, dance, writing, photography... and any of these has many varities as well. what I know by now is, that I’m good in combinating - writing with drawing and stuff... but what I still don’t know is, what’s exact kind of drawing and writing I’m good at. actually, it’s more correct to say - what I still don’t know is, what’s exact kind of drawing and writing I’m *best* at.
changing yourself is also kind of creation, even if you don’t realize it. I change myself every day, with everything I do.
getting on that, communication can also be considered as kind of creation, at least I clacify it so.
I love in a creative way. I hate in a creative way. I cry in a creative way. I am being happy in a creative way. I hide myself in a creative way. I open myself wide in a creative way. I am being strong and vulnerable at the same time, and everything in between, in creative way. I am what I am in a creative way, I live my life in a creative way. that’s the way I am, and it’s none of anybody’s ablilites to change it, neither I am willing to let anybody try.
creation can be everything and nothing, it depends on the way you define it.
I usually can’t create if anyone is watching me, because the most of the time I try new things, things that I’m not sure if I’m good at, and I feel very insecure, kinda mantally naked, weak.
creation is everything in my life.
I’m no good in anything but creating.
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I’d keep on writing on this subject, as I have what more to say, but I have another work to do now....