I borrowed a handfull of Roxette related lines to gather my feelings and wanted to write them down on a card to send to Marie thru the FC... But then I didn’t find the courage to...

Later Judith brought up the get-well-wish-guestbook and I wished to write these lines there... But again courage failed on me...

I guess I was finding out I don’t have the “at ease” (or however one wants to call it) it takes to send a message directly/personally to Marie. (Marie nor Per for what it matters.) Never did, and still don’t, so I was to realize... Too insignificant... Feel just too insignificant to have the right to... Who am I but after all just some another stranger/nobody?

But worse at this time... Even worse than feeling insignificant... Is now to feel as impotent. Impotent to offer effective/real support/help to someone I truly love and care for in such a time as this. I only wished I had the power to change this reality... Ain’t we so small in the end?

Anyway I know you (Marie) will not be laying your eyes in these following words... (Guess it’s for knowing that why I ended writing them here... Otherwise mostly for sure again I wouldn’t...) But also I don’t mind really... All in all... This is only my heart speaking... For yours to listen...

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Once upon a time there was a little girl.
In a soft unguarded moment she jumped into my life.
Singing loud and clear, in my heart the only one...
Everywhere I look I see her smile, her absent-minded eyes...
She’s a child of the sun.
She’s a miracle. She’s all that I need.
Hon som är min bästa vän...
My magic friend...
She’s coloured all the secrets of my soul, I’ve whispered all my dreams...
Hey now it seems you’ve always touched me like the sun.
Love is all around you. Love is there. In your laughter. In your hair. Love flows everywhere...
Nothing will remain, nothing stays the same after you came.
Ever since I saw you entering my world life has really changed to diamonds and pearls...
Oh vinterängel, tack för att du kom hit.
Shine forever. Shine a little while.
All I imagine is heaven on earth, I know it’s you.
Your name is on the tea-cup, there’s nothing I can do.
You’ve been in my dreams all my life.
I was so lucky you came by...

But everything more or less appears so meaningless, blue and cold.
Su dolor me duele a mí.
Darkness all around my heart.
En känsla av regn.
And I keep asking why? I keep on asking how?
September rain should fall somewhere else...
Var blev du av?
Since you’ve been gone no beautiful thing seems beautiful to me.
Mina dagar har ändrat färg.
Mi mundo feliz dejo de ser feliz.
Feeling so small...
Sitter tyst och blundar.
I’m staring at the ground.
Can’t see the sun on my wall.
One more tear is lost in the rain.
Walking alone through the afternoon traffic, I miss you so...

Hej hej, solens vän, när är du tillbaks igen? Hej hej, solens vän, när är du tillbaks?
Habla el corazón a todas horas de tí.
Busco tu voz...
The radio is on but the sound is all gone...
I call your name...
Can you hear me call your name?
Quiero saber de tí.
I wish I could fly out in the blue, over this town, following you...
Wherever you go, I’m going with you, shouldn’t you know, I’m bound to follow. Whatever you say, whatever you do, I give you a clue, I’m gonna follow.

Ever since the sky turned grey I’ve waited for the perfect day...
No answers for the asking. No mercy for the aching...
Swallowing the tears I cry...
Solo pienso fuertemente en tí...
I can see your smile when I close my eyes...
I’m waiting for the rain, I’m waiting for you.
I could never give you up.
You’re every little thing I still dream about.
I say a prayer for someone I care for.
Min lilla ängel, stanna kvar hos mig.
Paint your love all over my world.
Oh give me just a smile.

Jag hoppas att du mår bra...
I wish I could bring the spring to your door...
Tro. Jag vill känna tro.
Efter regn kommer solen.
An angel smiled across the room...
Maybe the clouds I fear will turn to flowers in the air...
Anímate que lo malo pasa. Así es la ley, esa es la verdad. Porque no hay mal que cien años dure. Espera con valor el día del amor.

Some will get broken, others will get lucky like me meeting you.
Jag glömmer aldrig dej.
I want you to know. I want you to stay.
There’s something about you I really need. You make me remember the power when everything’s right.
I was so lucky you found me.
Känn hur jag älskar dig, för evigt, för alltid.
I want you to know. I want you today.
Jag vill se dej skratta, jag vill se dej le.
Jag vill ha dej överallt.
This is the place where you belong.
I say a prayer now. That you come back to stay. Bring back the perfect day.
I’ll never stop believing.
I wish you peace. I wish you the best.
Känna tro!

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In the end...

My apologies to Visa and Lars... For taking TDR’s forum for this “purpose”. Shall you feel my words don’t belong here...

And my apologies yet to everyone else... Anyone who may have clicked on this thread to come to find it to be as ridiculous as it can be... That’s the “ridiculous” my heart feels. The “ridiculous” my heart’s been feeling since September last... And I just... Just needed to let it out... Let it out somewhere... Somewhere else than this piece of paper in front of me... Just... Needed...

Thank you...

And a happy(ier) coming year. To all. And so specially to you Marie... So specially to you...